find myself

 

in a bit of a quandary, and I don't like it.  I'm a talker.  as if some of you didn't know that.  I can talk all day long, if I'm in the mood.  talking is good for the soul, the brain, and the heart.  oh and your nerves too!  there is a person, that while I don't see them often, our lives are connected. this person does not like me. period! I'm not sure why, I think I know why, but most likely they would tell me I've got it wrong, if they would talk to me! I've tried. I've reached out. I've made gestures. nothing, I get nothing back, except ignored. ok fine, you don't like me, that is ok, but could we at least try and be civil to each other!!! I think if we could just communicate a little, get things out in the open, we might find it was just a huge misunderstanding. she still doesn't have to like me, but she could sure be a grownup about it!  I know I just need to pray about it, and let go of it!

 

A bit of good news!!  Everyone remember Jan 2013, when David was suddenly let go from his job, after the dealerships were bought out and the new owner was cleaning house??  David was let go, because they didn't like him! (what is with people not liking us??)  anyway, that guy who bought the dealership, well he was using company/investor money, to buy and furnish his home. take his large family to Disney World. he and his wife took a few vacations.  in 8 months he about had them all bankrupt. it was a mess!  the dealership sold again, a few months ago. the new owners called David. he starts back next week.  do you all know what that means???? it means he will be home before 7pm at night, way before, AND, he will be cooking dinner again, not me!  can I get a woohoo!!  it's really great news for us. there are plans for him to step into an upper management role, and I can't even begin to tell you how much he is looking forward to it.  

 

and now, a few pictures from a couple weekends ago.  went out with Matt, Kristin, and the cupcake.

the pictures I really really wanted, it just didn't work, the cupcake needed a nap and was cranky! when she gets her stubborn on, it's just not going to happen.  always another day, and my camera isn't going anywhere!

 

 

 

How Lisa Got Her Groove Back!

 

let me just say that while I am not opposed to change, not at all, adjusting to it is an entirely different story!  and some changes are bigger than others!  no seriously, they are.

 

I can not begin to tell you how much I love our cupcake, there are just no words to describe it.  you know you love your kids, but just wait until one of them has a child.  I don't know if it's because there hasn't been a little one in the house in 20 years, or if it's that she is my child's child, but the love is so intense.

 

anyway, so we all agree that I love her like crazy, right, but.... she has turned my world upside down and inside out, and talk about a change in the house!! nothing is as it was, nothing! I will say though, that we've gotten into a routine now, and it sure helps.  no longer do I have her after work a few nights, along with some on the weekend, but now just only on the weekend.  she usually gets here Sat afternoon and then leaves Sunday night. so I've had to adjust, adjust when I do laundry and clean house.  adjust when I watch tv and read, and lets not even talk about scrapbooking.  no more do we spend all weekend playing with paper.  but, I don't mind... because she is only little once.  yes, I know, there will probably be a few more that come along just like her, but it's ok! I'll adjust!

 

and adjust I have.  instead of hours spent in my little world, it's minutes.  I've found though, I seem to accomplish more with less time.  seems I know I've only got five minutes and instead of spending my time pushing paper here and there and being indecisive about what to use, I slap it down and call it done!  plus, I have to say, I'm a PRO at mulit-tasking!!  

 

so, with 10 mins before work, 15 mins at lunch, 20 mins before dinner, and if I'm not too tired, 10-20 mins before bed, I've managed to get some creating done, and complete several layouts! I'm not even going to ask how long it might last... I'm just going to roll with it. 

 

and that is how I got my groove back!  one minute at a time!

 

now if I can just manage to get some blogging time in there too....

 

 

here lately, I've been using white as a background, and I'm loving it!  this layout is for Kristin's book.  it's the day our little cupcake was born.  Matt had come out to the waiting room to update us and he sat down for a few minutes to chat.  this picture was taken just a couple hours before he became a daddy, and I have to say, he has done a fine job!  

 

and, can you believe that in 6 weeks she will be a year old!  how did that happen!!

Ready for 2014!

Oh my goodness!  Another year has flashed by.... and in a hurry. 

 

I'm already planning for 2014 to be a great year!

 

This Little Cupcake will turn one in a few months!

 

 

 

 

 

I've no doubt she will be walking soon.  She stands all by herself, will take a couple steps before tumbling, and is showing of some very entertaining dance moves! Has 6 teeth already, and knows what food is!

 

I've picked my one little word of the year.  Focus.  It's going to be a big word this year!

I will hit the big 50 this year.  Not sure when that happened, but, I do know that I am still wearing capris, jeggings and leggings, and I'm not cutting my hair!  Matter of fact, I may put a blue streak in it next time!

This year may be the year I jump of the diving board.  I really do need to do that. hahaha I've only been saying this for what, 4 years now? I think I really only say it to give David hope that it will happen

Going to work more on my photography, because for the last 2 or 3 months, I've not been liking what I'm seeing come out of my camera.  Hmmmm, wonder if that means I should be a little less critical of what I'm snapping.

Seriously wanting  this little baby, but not sure I need it.

 

I plan to do lots of experimenting with cooking this year.  I'm going to learn to chop onions like a pro and flip items in the skillet just by using my wrist... AND, not get burned or cut any body parts off in the process!   Seriously though, I'm going to broaden my cooking skills! 

 

Mainly though, I'm going to find some kind of time to carve out for myself.  I seemed to have lost that this past year, with someone needing something from me on a pretty regular basis.  I had enough of that, and 2014, the year I turn 50, it's my year!   (and that starts next week, just as soon as I finish everything on my honey do/momma do list!)

 

 

and now, a few pictures from Christmas Eve.

 

she was thinking she was going to take her Santa hat off.  I was thinking she wasn't.  She won.

 

 

I really am so very proud of the daddy he is.  He is so in love with her.

    

                             They really are fun, and I think maybe big things are in store for them

                                    She seriously has her Aunt J wrapped around her little finger

 

                                                           Love her facial expressions

Now, let's make 2014 a most fabulous year!

as is..

Here is another one of my layouts that I'm not loving, and while looking at it, I am thinking that there are certain parts of it I'd have done differently.  One such thing being the tags with sprinkles of confetti.  I'd punched all those, planned to put them in a vellum baggie and sew it on the layout.  It just didn't work, not sure if it didn't work for me or for the layout, but it didn't work!  Not wanting all that to go to waste, instead I glued the confetti dots to the tags, with my thinking being I didn't want to cover up all of the tag.  I wanted to be able to see that it was tags on there, I'm not sure why I wanted that, just remember wanting to know they were in fact tags.  Now looking at it, I wish I'd put more confetti dots on there. 

Throw on a bit of washi tape, some chipboard butterflies, and a mistable sun from Studio Calico, along with an old tag out of my stash, and  put it in the done pile.  Not sure if I really thought it was done, or I was just done with it for the time being.  There's no title and no journaling, and again I'm not sure if I'd planned on leaving all that off or not.  Because of where it will go in the album, it will be fine with no title and no journaling.  Perhaps that is what I feel is missing, maybe that would help.

Sometimes, on the projects that I seem to just "not know", it's better for me to walk away from it and then look at it later.  For now, this page is in the album as is, if it's still bothering me in a month or so, then I'll see about adding something to it.  Chances are, I'll leave it as is, because I only have another 42,683 pictures that need to make it on a layout.

Thanks for taking a little of your time to stop by and read my rambling.  I do appreciate your time.  :)